here i am.
back in black and white.
in a layout featuring the one and only white dragon...
psycho/mmunity has reopened its doors, finally.
| The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known facts about those who know you. 1. Start Time: 8:11 PM 2. Name: Melinda 3. Nickname: Mindy.. Mindizzle.. Diz.. Mindo.. Monday.. Minderella.. whatever. 4. Astrology sign: taurus 5. Gender: chick 7. Hair color: BLONDE. 8. Eye color: green 9. Height: 5"6" ish. 10. Favorite color: red & black 11. Glasses: yes. and contacts. 13. tattoos: yes one. 14. Birthplace: alexandria, va. 15. Area code: 770 16. Siblings names: matthew ******HAVE YOU EVER***** 17. cut your own hair? lol yes. 18. Done something in the past month that you regret? nope. 19. Have you ever met someone you were not supposed to? um.. no. how would i know if i wasnt supposed to meet someone. 21. Skipped school? hell yes. LOL optional friday. skip school and go to the library. im SUCH A DORK. 22. Bungee jumped? no, but i would. 25. Cheated on someone? no. 24. Punched someone? nah. 26. Been arrested? NO 27. Broken into someones house? no 30. Been rejected? LOL more times than i care to remmeber. 31. Been to a funeral? yeah. 32. Used a lighter? yes? every day. 33. Been on stage? yes and i hate it *****FAVORITE***** 34. food: italian.. mexican.. chinese.. HARDEES (mmm) 36. Ice cream flavor: mint chocolate chip. 37. School subject(s): english 38. Candy: whatever im in the mood for. (FROZEN TAKE 5 BARS YUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM) 39. Breakfast cereal: lucky charms.. captain crunch.. life.. count chocula.. BOO BERRY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~! 41. Book(s): too many to name. 42. Movie(s): again. i have a bunch 43. Song(s): currently my favorite song is... *drumroll* please take me home by Blink182 or bent by matchbox20 44. Park: like.. national park? what? like im going to a park going "THIS IS MY FAVORITE PARK EVER! THESE TREES ARE SO MUCH GREENER." 45. State: any one of them with a beach. 46. Place: home. (= 47. Sport to watch on TV: none. LOL 50. Letter(s): i really like Q and Z because they're the worst scrabble pieces.. but if you get them on triple letter score, youre golden for the rest of the game. (; 51. Favorite fast food restaurant: HARDEEEEEESSSSSSS and sometimes arbys. 52. Disney Princess: sleeping beauty. and definately not the little mermaid.. because.. okay she lost her voice.. why wouldnt she jsut get that crab to write a note "hey, prince eric.. dont marry that girl because shes an octopus or something crazy." 53. TV station?: FX ~~~~~~ and E! 54. Name for a son: i dont know 55. Name for a daughter: see above. i have no kids. ******DO YOU PREFER***** 56. Chocolate or Vanilla? strawberry 57. Guy friends or girl? guys are fun when you want to chill. but my girl friends are AWESOME! you cant go "OMGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HEYYYYY!!!!" when you see a guy. because they're like "sup." or if they're james they'll make fun of me. 58. Long relationships or one night stands? relationships. 59. Dogs or cats? cats, but apparently we're getting a dog so YAY. 60. Scary movies or comedies? both of em. 61. Short or long hair? i love my hair. 62. Croutons or bacon bits? either or. i dont really contemplate which is better. ******FIRST THINGS THAT COME TO MIND****** 64. Mexicans in general: sombreros! 65. School: starts monday. 67. Cow: tipping. 68. Canada: "i like your shorts ayyy." 69. Horse riding: i have never been. and horses are kind of scary iwth those big ol teeth. i really hate big teeth on anything. especially people ******THE PAST 3 DAYS, HAVE YOU****** 71. Watched a movie? yes. talledega nights LOL 72. Talked on the phone? yes 73. Cried? no 74. Choked? nope 75. Drank a glass of water? yes 76. Done Drugs? no 77. Read a book or magazine? no 78. Watched TV? yes 79. Looked in the mirror? YES. all the time. 80. Taken a shower? YES 81. Taken a picture? yes. of a cartoon of a horse smokign a cigarette LOL 82. Listened to music? YES 83. Hugged someone? YES 84.Told someone you liked them? yes. (= and i told my mom that i loved her on the phone. 85. end time: 826 PM i sped through another day in my life...Tuesday, August 8, 2006 08:11 p.m. -Longest relationship: the one im in right now. -Shortest relationship: a month. -How many times have you truly been in love? i dont know. -How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they love you? one when i was 17. -Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were with? yeah. -Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt? i dont know about all that. -Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry? yeah. and that was awful. -Have you ever cried over a boyfriend or girlfriend? yes. -Are you happy being single or in relationships? im happy either way. it is fantastic to be in a relationship though. -Have you ever been cheated on? HAHAH YES. OHHHHH yes. almost every guy ive dated. isnt that just awesome. -What is the most important PART of being in a relationship? trust. and the fact that they can make you laugh even when youre feeling really crappy. -What is the worst part of being in a relationship? broken trust. and cheating. which is one in the same. -Worst relationship? i will decline to answer. i dont regret the relationsihp i had.. however if i could go back in time i would not have made the same decisions that i did. -Have you ever had your heart broken? yes. -Have you ever broken someones heart? LOL no. im pretty forgettable. -Do you talk to any of your exes? nah. -What is your ideal boyfriend or girlfriend? i dont have a type. but i like the boyfriend i have now. hes fab (= -Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend? i dont know. i guess? im laid back? i let people do their thing. -Have you dated people who were not good to you? yes. -Have you been in an abusive relationship? mm.. -Name your most memorable ex if you have had 1: eh, i dont know. -Have you dated someone older then you? Yes. they've all been older. -Younger? no. -What is one thing that all of your exes had in common? they all cheated on me. -Have you ever cried yourself to sleep over a boyfriend or girlfriend? not to sleep. -Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? no. i dont recycle exes. one strike and youre out. -Believe in love at first sight? no. but lust at first sight yes. -Ever dated two people at once? no. i did go out on two blind dates in a week though. -Ever been given a promise ring? nope. -Ever been given an Engagement ring? nope. -Do you want to get married? i guess one day. -Ever stolen someones boyfriend or girlfriend? no. because thats BITCHY. -Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend? yes. but I LIKED HIM FIRST. and me and her weren't friends. -Do you believe in true love? sure ? -Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds? yeah, it sucks. but then you get over it. and it makes you stronger and smarter. i sped through another day in my life...Tuesday, August 8, 2006 07:55 p.m. /couldnt del took it off of myspace. put that shit over here. no. im not going to code it. deal. mel. Stream of Consciousness. or some BS. Current mood: tired (ps. this is more just for me. its too long and too hard to read.) i hate when i get my feelings hurt. i hate that i let my feelings get hurt. i hate when people act like they are better than me i hate when people see me cry. (because they never stay around to see me get happy.) i hate when you think you understand and then you dont i hate when my feelings are hurting i hate that my head hurts all the time i hate that i cant open my mouth and say something i hate that people cant open their mouths and say things to me i hate that people dont understand me. i hate that it doesnt matter to anyone if my feelings are hurt. i hate crying in general. i hate getting angry when the only person to blame is me i hate alcohol. i hate drugs. i hate getting my feelings hurt. i hate empty promises. i hate lies. i hate the truth. i hate my weight. for real. i hate misjudging a person. i hate reality. i hate that stuff never plays out like it does in my head. i hate getting my hopes up. i hate finding out. i hate "figuring it out for myself" i hate apathy. i hate that i jump to immediate conclusions. i hate how weak i am. i hate the weight of the world. i hate my headache right now. i hate that i run away when i get upset. i hate that i can only count on my car to be strong for me. i hate that an inanimate object is my source of strength. i hate not knowing i hate knowing i hate bad news. i hate when i let myself feel happy. i hate letting myself down. i hate that i am a huge disappointment. i hate that i dont know CPR. i hate that i cant fix things right now. i hate that nobody tries. i hate thinking things are okay. i hate when my phone is on ring. i hate not knowing who to call when i am upset. i hate that nobody can fix it. i hate fucking "meet virginia" i hate fairy tales. i hate cinderella. i hate rude people i hate judgemental people. i hate people who spaz. i hate that nobody lets me finish a thought i hate when people cut me off. i hate that "Everyone has the same problems as me" i hate that nobody knows what "all my problems are". i hate being confused. i hate that i couldnt do anything on the 31st. i hate that i was so calm i hate that i have had 2 nervous breakdowns this year i hate that i have a panic attack everytime i drive to hapeville. i fucking hate southern regional. i hate doctors. i hate "are you the family of Jerry Burton?" i hate that i interrupted Trent while he was hanging out. i hate that i had a panic attack on the phone that night. i hate that i left the room. i hate that i couldnt go in the room. i hate that my hands wont stop shaking. i hate that i keep replaying that night. i hate that goddamn house on rock creek. i hate that we didnt move out sooner. i hate that i didnt want to move. i hate that i didnt tell Jerry where i was going that one night. i hate that fucking movie. i hate sex and the city. i hate that i was smoking and laughing. i hate that i was so calm. i hate that i thought it was going to be okay. i hate hearing my mom relive the story i hate that my mom wont stop crying. i hate that i havent unpacked. i hate that im unmotivated. i hate that nobody gives a damn. i hate when i think people care, and then they dont. i hate when i think i might have a chance, but then i dont. i hate when people get my hopes up, but they dont know. i hate "just talk about it!" i hate when people try to make me feel better by saying things like: "dont worry, i think its going to work out." i hate when people say things like "omg are they retarded?" i hate when people tell me that im pretty just because they feel bad for me. i hate that my feelings are hurting. i spent a while at the cemetary. i have cried alot. hate that bullshit. hurt feelings and all. goddamn. i sped through another day in my life...Friday, January 6, 2006 10:10 p.m. dear pitas. regretfully. i haven't had much time for you. i apologize for that. honestly. with 17 thousand blogs.. i have a hard time remembering you. however you are the only internet thing i can be honest with and not have to worry about A. people i know reading it or B. people leaving helpful comments. but then again i have to know HTML which i used to be supa fly at. back in the heyday of middle school. ay me. sad hours do seem long. i sped through another day in my life...Monday, December 26, 2005 08:36 p.m. //this part gets hard. so im just sitting here thinking. how can someone make you feel good. and at the same time make you feel unstable. which leads me to this: [disclaimer: i am not saying this because i think my problems are more important. i am not saying this because i want anyone to feel bad. i just want to say it for me. which is why im putting it here. away from eyes] i have been through a lot in my life. some good. some bad. and i wonder where karma begins? this summer was hard. extrememly hard. its hard to relate to people anymore .. when they say "man im so sad for no reason." i can think of a million reasons why i can be sad. and why i have to fight to not completely collapse. i dont worry about exams. i worry about money. no. mindy isnt the spoiled brat everyone thinks she is. i dont get everything i want. im not high maintenence anymore. and im okay with that. i avoid my biological father on the phone why? because i hate him. why? because he has brought me so much pain. yes. we did have alot of good times. but the bad outweighed it. and he "doesnt know me anymore" and my family "doesnt know me anymore" and nobody "knows me anymore" and i am always strong for everyone. and i dont have someone to lean on. and thats really hard. to lean on yourself. im not complaining. ive done it before. and ill continue to do it. surface scratches. im too much of a free spirit for everyone. im too far gone. should i go and see like.. a psychiatrist or some bullshit? no. because i dont talk to strangers. i write it down in a little blog and wait until my ears stop ringing. i cant watch everyone around me hurt anymore life on the social aspect? as in guys? dont ask me. its a fall cycle.. coming late in the year. usually this mood sets in around september. where i feel like the world is going to end and there is nothing around me. i bought a wreath and fake flowers and garland today to make a wreath for the cemetary. and thats so. i dont know. i dont know what do make of that. i have to make a wreath and put dad on it? and put it on a grave? i started crying when i couldnt tie a tie today. and i looked up at the ceiling and tied it.. and it tied. and then i couldnt do it anymore. and im listening to styx. my aunt has lung cancer. and she has never smoked a day in her life. i am loosing all control in my life. im really not. i have a firm grasp on my life. if we can believe that. however i have a large knot in my stomach that wont go away. and its at this point that i would rather have a complete nervous breakdown rather than feel this tenseness all over my body. am i sad about shallow things in my life? not really. just disappointed. i dont want to see anyone hurt anymore i want everything to be okay. im such a terrible person now. i dont pray. i pretend. i sit around. i only like to go to work. i dont WANT to go out and meet new people. i would much rather sit at home. i wear that cross even though i dont feel anything. i cant go to the cemetary. i hide. a lot. however im not saying this for sympathy because. i dont want sympathy. or compassion. or "im so sorry." or "itll be okay. keep your chin up sweetie." or "God works in mysterious ways." because i dont need any more mystery. i dont need any apologies. i dont need anyone telling me it will be okay. or calling me sweetie. or h'levreinnye. or punkin. or anything. buck up. thats all i need to do. just get over myself. and thats what ill do. ill be okay. or throw myself further under the train. <3 i sped through another day in my life...Friday, November 25, 2005 09:05 p.m. +i have learned BALLS OUT Life is about being ballsy. so fuck every other entry i have ever written about being all distraught because soem boy decided.. oh fuck you because oh fuck them i dont really give a flying fuck what ever hi how you doin PS. HI HI HI i like people that know how to kiss. kissing is fun. especially when people know how to DO IT RIGHT ~~~~~ (= <33333333333333333333333333333333333333333 i sped through another day in my life...Saturday, July 23, 2005 10:11 p.m. //wow. after everything that has happened i feel that its time for me to blog about it. not goign to use compulsive spaces. this one is pretty much going to be in one big fat paragraph so guess what? mindy had a crush on a boy (big fucking suprise right?) so then i did the unexpected and told him (which i dotn ever do) so he came back with a generic lets jsut be friends thing. which sucks. a lot. especially because now i feel like.. retarded. and i know "dont feel retarded about how you feel" but .. hi. thats how i am. anyway, that hurt my feelings. but then i found out, guess what hes been hooking up with someone else. and i think while me and him were.. whatever. hanging out dating whatever you wantt o call it. becausei never knew. so THAT hurt me A LOT. because like. holy shit what? wghen i found out. i was like oh what? he did hmm? and.. yeah. we weren't anything serious. I KNOW THAT. im not retarded seriously. only osemtimes. BUT when you like a person you dont want to think that they are out having AMSAP (as much sex as possible.) thats just not cool. at all. and, im probably overreacting about this whole situation. because if it means nothing to one person, it shouldnt mean anything to the other person. if its unimportant to them. then by golly i guess its unimportant. but theres always that tiny voice that said "he likes you!" and you get all excited and shit. and then the other, much louder voice comes in when you get bad news and is like "you fucking imbecile. why would you even think that he would like you. because you can be wretched sometimes" am i feeling sorry for myself? no. are my feelings hurt ? yes. its just like.. oh shit what? and nobody really understands. i discussed this at the WaHo with trent jamie and jess. and none of them could understand. i believe the term "bizarro world" came into play several times. and also FanBoy. but thats unimportant. and i do understand now. i believe this is what is true. honestly, i was nothing more than an attempted conquest. "how far can you get with the virgin girl?" i have come to terms with the fact that, although perhaps i thought differently, all guys will treat me as a conquest to see how far they can get with me. because when they learn "mindy is a virgin" they instantly start thinking "what should i do to try to have sex with her?" and when they find out that im waiting until i feel a real connectionw ith someone (im not saying marriage. im saying connection. because marriage is insane. and im horny.) then they start going "how do you pretend to connect?" and then the obvious answer is that you CANT pretend to have a connectionw ith a person. and thent hey get bored. guys have always gotten bored with me. boohoo im so emo right? GOSHHH IM SO BORING ETC i didnt say i was a boring person. because i can be fun. plus, i know how to have fun like one of the boys. but im not really the type of girl that guys want to be with. just the type of girl theyw ant to hang with. or try to divide and conquer. like a viking or soemthing i had to get it off of my chest. its hard for me to write that stuff down. so ill put it here where nobody else will read it (LOL on the internet.) im not delusional. or psychotic. i know what it was. and what it wasnt. and i know that we were not this serious 5 year relationship. however. i know also how i feel. and i know that it sucks that it was nothing but cavemanish actions. i know that i am not this special beautiful wonderful girl that everyone loves and wants to date. and im not trying to be all emo and sound like a crazy depressed insaneo girl who is goign to go around talking garbage and bullshit. thats not my style at all. ill let my feelings go, and that will be the end of it. im not the type of girl who goes around shit talking and stuff, and gets all up in peoples faces and yells at them. because i know that they dont care, so me yelling isnt going to make them care. they arent going to suddenly go "you know what, youre right i am an asshole." theyre goign to go "okay? go away youre a stupid bitch." and that would hurt my feelings. again. so i think i got all of this out of my system. i think ill say it again just for good measure: i know i was a conquest to him. i just deluded myself by believing that i wasnt. i know that "we" were never a "we" because "we" were not "together." "we" were just casual. honestly. and to note: i just liked him. no "love" no "omigoshithinkillmarryhim" none of that bullshit. i just liked him. so nobody gets the wrong idea.. it was just a crush. thats all. there was no like uberconnection where we were the same persona nd he was finishing my sentences and i was like "omigoshsoulmate" because a. i dont believe in that and b. im only 19. i think it was a lust thing also. seriously. Lust is a strong feeling. also a deadly sin. im done. i sped through another day in my life...Tuesday, July 5, 2005 06:53 a.m. youreso/vicious awesomely rad. thaaats about it. -mellie i sped through another day in my life...Friday, April 29, 2005 02:17 a.m. beer/bad its my favorite episode of buffy. because they all turn into cave people.. and it proves my theory that frat boys are evil. alexis let me work part of a truck today. that was goodtimes. (=  and illj ust quote lee on this one and say "you're wearing low top chuck taylors. they're like 'i hate my ankles and wish they would die shoes.'" he said this right after i twisted my ankle on the stairs at GSU. because i felt that walking up 5 flights of stairs after finishing 2 cigarettes would be a GREAT idea. im tellin you. im a frickin genius in the truest sense of the word. and i guess thats about it for now. i bought a hat. and appetite for destruction (GNR BABY!) -mellie i sped through another day in my life...Thursday, April 21, 2005 05:57 p.m. boo/hiss i <3 those  You're Gangsta Bitch Barbie. You're tough and you like it rough, and of course you like to pop a cap in any wiggers ass. If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be? brought to you by Quizilla  Your Heart is Black What Color is Your Heart? brought to you by Quizilla boohiss!!! ah quizilla.. you know me far too well. and again.. nothing of interest to tell. although we did go see a house out in villa rica. it was really pretty (= and.........i talked to jacob! (= how very random ! i havent talked ot him in ages! and hewished me a happy very super early birthday (= hes so sexay (; and i guesst hats about it <3 and stuff mellie and now for a survey 1. What do people tend to label you as (i.e., Chav (townie) Prep, trendy, punk, Goth, mambo, skater etc): i dont have a label... but if i had to guess.. ill go for "bitch" 2. Do you choose to label yourself (if you do, what as?): PUNK RAWK LOL 3. Describe your dress sense: whatever is cute. and tight wooyeah. 4. What are you wearing right now: black shirt pants and trix rabbit socks. 5. What jewellery are you wearing: big jangley windchime earrings.. a diamondy dangle in one hole and a stud in the other... my double horseshoes.. and various rings.. 6. What are you most known for wearing: im sure black LOL 7. Do you belong to a particular clique? never have. 8. Friends wise – do you hang around with people who dress the same as you? no. i hang out iwth guys. who all dress like guys 9. What particular clothes style do you hate and why: mm.. i dont like the whole.. "im so gangster" look 10. Describe your hair: blonde. not very uber longish... but pretty (= 11. Do you take pride in your appearance? i try. + The opposite sex. (Or same, depending) 12. Would you say you were straight, gay or bi? straight. 13. What is your attitude to gay relationships if you’re straight? let people live. love is genderblind. 14. Do you know anyone who is gay or bi? cha. 15. Who? i have some friends. 16. Have you ever had a sexual experience with someone of the same sex? nope. 17. Are you currently in a relationship? LOL no. 18. If your answer is no – do you want to be? mmm... dunno. 19. Do you have a specific type in guys (or girls)? no. apparently not. i just prefer a sense of humor. 20. What kind of people will you NOT go out with? i will NOT go out with guys who cannot hold a conversation. 21. What kind of people would you LOVE to go out with? to me.. humor is sexy. humor and confidence. (= 22. Do you have crushes (if so, who are they :::describe:::): meh lets continue. 23. What song makes you feel most romantic? i wanna know what love is. .. i will buy you a new life.. hurt so good... kiss you all over.. full of grace (makes me cry.) and the all time best : Anytime. 24. What’s your age limit (you won’t go out with people older than…)? as long as its within reason. i dont know though. i think 25 26 is a little bit too old.. but who can say. 25. Would you go out with people younger than you? i never say never.... it depends ont he maturity level. 26. Are you in love? Good God no. 27. Have you ever been in love with someone who wasn’t available to you? i have never been in love. + Music 28. What song are you listening to now? i need you tonight : INXS 29. Name 6 of your favourite bands and singers: i dont know. 30. How often do you listen to music: constantly. 31. How would you describe your music taste: random o.O;; 32. Is the music you like a strong representation of you and your personality? oh yeah.. Owner of a Lonely Heart bayyyyyyy-beeeeee ); 33. Can you sing, or are you in a band? i cant sing. LOL + Favourites 34. Favourite Films (list a minimum of 3): a minimum of three. thats bitchy. girl, interrupted... dumbo.. drop dead fred. 35. Favourite T.V shows (list 3): buffy the vampire slayer.. the soup. best week ever 36. Favourite Drinks (list 3): coffee. water. orange soda 37. Favourite Ethnic Food (Don't just put down "Chinese".. what specifically..): (this survey is so demanding.) Tacos. General Tso's Chicken. Pasta 38. Favourite Snack Items (list 3): french bread. milk duds. coffee? 39. Favourite Books (include authors): hey nostradamous : douglas coupland.. Jesus Saves (i dont remember who wrote it..) and Lovely bones (again. no idea.) 40. Favourite Drawing Medium (ie. Pencil, Pastels, Conte, Charcoal): i love b/w charcoal. 41. Favourite Cereals (list 2): Captain Crunch.. Boo Berry + Family Friends 42. Do you have a big family? no. 43. Who are you closest to? my mom 44. Do you get on better with your mum or your dad? ... my mom... LOL i just said htat 45. Do you get along with your siblings? yeah. 46. Who lives with you? my mom my stepdad my bro me and three kitties 47. Are your parents divorced? cha. 48. One best friend or a lot of friends? not alot of friends. 49. Who was the last friend you hung out with, and what did you do? i hung out and had coffee. 50. Who was the last friend you chatted with on the phone? .....golly i guess trent to say "why do you burn a rubberband?" 51. Is there one particular thing you can do with one friend that you can’t do with any of the others? eh.no. 52. Who can you tell all your secrets to? my journal X= 53. Who was the last friend you were annoyed with and why? its unimportant 54. Which friend do you share most in common with? mmm... again. i dont really know. + Random questions 55. Do you have a mobile phone? lol yes. a cellular phone 56. What make is it? verizon i think 57. What do you use it for? to tell ym mom when im on my way home and to randomly call trent to ask him an obscure question. 58. Who is the first person listed in your phone (book): "Home" 59. What’s the situation with the weather right now, where you are? its nice. and im in my house 60. Do you like rain? yes. definately 61. What time is it? time for bed. 1234. 62. What are you having for dinner? i ate a shish kabob (SP?? WTF) 63. What are you going to do tomorrow? wake up. take my brother to school. relax for all of thirty secodns then who knows! 64. What was the last movie you watched? i dont remember.. 65. What are your favourite names? fred.. (= 66. What’s your favourite take out food? depends on ym mood 67. In single words (not sentences) describe your personality: vague. random. annoying. bitchy. tired. annoyed. hilarious. ridiculous. peculiar. silly. goofy. shy. strange. creative. shutterbug. stubborn. 68. Name a few people you can’t stand: thats impolite. 69. When was the last time you laughed hysterically and why? today with the tongue tattoos. 70. When was the last time you were scared and why? last night. just got bewildered. 71. How old are your grandparents? i have no idea 72. What’s your nearest church called? i think.. um.. its the rock.. thats closest? 73. The last time you ate birthday cake? september for jerry's b'day. 74. The last book you read? half of being alexander.. again. 75. The next book you’re going to read? the Fuck Up 76. Do you have fantasies (Whether sexual or not, you tell me): sure. 77. Who was the last person who showed you affection? umm.. 78. What’s your favourite Shakespeare play? Much Ado About Nothing (LOL) and taming of the shrew 79. When you go into a bookshop, which section do you head for? art. then fitness and beauty. followed by fiction. then i walk over to the sex books. (because a virgin's gotta know.) and i always get trapped into the sci fi books around all the weirdos. 80. When was the last time you were so overly annoyed, you wanted to scream blue murder: well... i wanted to scream green murder last night. 81. Who was the last person you spoke to through IM: brandon. 82. What’s the date today? i believe its 4-20 *eyeroll* 83. If you died, what song would you want to be played at your funeral? okay. the tracklist goes as follows: dust in the wind, spice world, macarena, cha-cha slide, hurt so good, owner of a lonely heart, Anytime, Full of Grace, Tide Is High, Heart of Glass, Brush your Shoulders off, and P.I.M.P LOL yeah im 2 punk 4 words.  i sped through another day in my life...Wednesday, April 20, 2005 12:12 a.m. i sped through another day in my life... i sped through another day in my life... prewo/rkblog got appx two and a half hours of sleep. went to sleep at 3ish. woke up at 530. painted faces (psych. i ended up doing a lot of gopher work and smoking w00) and when i did paint faces.. it was with the leigion of 14 year olds who thought they were art prodigies. (ie: emo-guy was making gianormous flowers. and other girls were like "let me paint your face like a tiger!") /= but i did get to dance the electric slide.. and the macarena.. and the cha-cha slide.. and we all did get to laugh our asses off at brandon.. due to the fact that he was dressed up as plato the publixosaurus and we had him run to the tune of "eye of the tiger" to continue. i was looking at old pictures and found the ones of everyone bowling. so ill sign out with that.. ps. 3-close tonight? on 2 and 1/2 hours sleep? ARRRRGH ("who's a good little pirate??") seacrest OUT~ mellie  (LOL ... nobody understands how the bowling thing works..)  check out trentifer smoking /= 
and cha. me and trent. on "the bitching stoop."also. i work all weeeknd. boohiss )= i sped through another day in my life...Saturday, April 16, 2005 02:15 p.m. im/back. for now. i revamped a little.. not alot. the new layout.. well it kinda sucks. its just the same ol retarded crap i do every time. i was rereading through my old archived blogs.. they make me sad to admit that i wrote them )= boo. apparently i had a problem with being a dramaqueen.. who knew? (= in my life presently there is much to announce (kinda.) i withdrew from my classes for this semester. it was too much work/not enough time. so that kind of sucks. (not really. i hate school.) and im pondering what i am going to do in the fall (i will be making a list soon.) no boyfriend. although.. (and here's the huge shocker) i am interested in a boy (i hear the gasps from around the world.) hah-hah. its a weird situation, however i like being around him.. way too much i go to the waffle house.. WAYYY too much. and ive been drinking way too much coffee. good god.. im going to develop an ulcer due to the excessive amounts i am drinking who can help it? waffle house makes damn good coffee. my social life is in a standstill. dead in the water.. whatever.. only not really. i just dont talk to the people i went to highschool with... ever. ran into chris at the TeaPot.. i was getting General Tso's Chicken.. and now i feel really ill. everytime i eat lately i just feel wicked. although im not supposed to say wicked... as it tends to .. well i guess you had to be there.. so lets move on........ however i dont feel bad when i drink coffee and eat hashbrowns. (my ass is gonna get fat from the WH. lol) and i dont think much else is going on.. just alot of weird feelings and thoughts. could someone that i like possibly like me back? fat chance as it has been made evident, not much has changed in my life.. except for a stunning advancement in the use of this funky stuff called "punctuation." maybe being a grownup means using commas and such in the correct places. but ill be damned if i start capitalizing my i's. i think rocko's modern life is on... or maybe matthew was just quoting the "mega spin" episode ("and now its time for you to SPIN THAT WHEEEEEEL!!! mega spin mega spin mega spin!") perhaps when i have something interesting to say.. something good will happen -mellie //also. here's my awesome quote "skull and crossbones? are you in a cult or something?" LOL hell no. im just too punk rawk for that ~ (= and to note. my IM changed ... "xLuckyBlondie" update the ol' buddy listage. (= i sped through another day in my life...Thursday, April 14, 2005 09:44 p.m.
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Psychommunity has reopened. Miss Melinda Bowman aka "weird girl" is backinblack and more outrageously bitchy than ever~! (=
mindy/melinda/melina/lucky. IM: xLuckyBlondie !!! i am not your savior - but i am crippled with desire !!! pleasure: good conversations. wet 'n' wild black eyeliner, makeup, coffee, waffle house until 2 AM, laughing about stupidity, gloating, Marlboro Reds, collecting Camel Cash, random quotes mid-conversations, being barefoot, shopping, jumping in the puddles (esp. at wal-mart due to the major flooding of the parking lot, working until close, music, the dragon, driving alone, looking at cool tattoos, sarcasm, thunderstorms pain: eternal optimists, aerobics, mopping, over-analyzing, early mornings, making change for a 100.00 when they only bought 2.00 worth of stuff, being yelled at, being "lectured" hopes: someone who understands, saving up enough camel cash to buy an actual camel... or duffel bag.., being able to relate to someone without them thinking im boring..... or 14. fears: birds, solitude, the dark, being boring, everyone thinking im a flake, becoming morbidly obese, loosing control the/past: |! @ # $ % ^ & * ( ) - _ + +\ | ] ? lostblog the/friends the\inspiration
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