Hey sweetcheeks, you are no different from a psychotic.
NO different. i am SO pissed. OMG am i pissed. do NOT hurt my friends. that is my #1 rule. say all the shit you wanna say to me, but DONT hurt my friends. do NOT. OMG egomaniac. Robin is sad. and im pissed. Just because you love someone, doesnt mean you are in love with them. This guy.. omg.. no names.. he knows who he is. needs some real sense knocked into him. i know i've only got robins side of the story, but thats all i need. im biased. and nothing he says will ever change the fact that SHE is hurt. her feelings got hurt, and it just pissed me off to no end. Robin is one of my super great friends who is always there to listen. and i was like "oo yay talk to my friend" thinking "wow they could hit it off" but oh no. apparently he can't accept the fact that shes had stuff go on in her life.. maybe its the extreme bias that makes me seem like a bitch? whatever. how dare him. UGH i hate stupid people like that. ((him not her)) anwyays. must be off.. im discussing things

kisses to those who matter
melindalocious

With tears in my eyes i fell further into the abyss on Thursday, May 9, 2002 at 09:47 p.m.

i need a hug. f'real.
well.. im bored. and tired. i should be in bed.. but my mom went to sleep.. and its 10-11 and i dont know what to do.. i am really tired. =0/ not fun.
i should write in my journal. i have alot to say.. but not really wanting everyone to know about it? LOL Me and robin are going to go on the lam. =0/ why.. i dont really know
my "best friend" laura... well.. i need to blog about her because she makes me want to cry. Apparently.. she moved out.. to lake ridge.. or soemthing.. and bought a new car... she lives alone.. her and mike are getting married... Mike.. is the 44 year old bitch-man who manipulated her.. GOD i hate him. he wreaked havoc on her life! she barely goes to class.. and shes gonna go to... NOVA.... omg. how great a life is that? i know i know.. dont judge.. blahblahblah. i've known laura since kindergarten shes making her life a mess. i wonder if he knocked her up. she wont tell her mom where she is living... shes.... geeze... it makes me so sad to know that she is like this..

i should've done something. it really is all my fault. i should've listened to her more.. i should've told her not to date him.. i should've told her she could call me anytime.. i should've hung out w/ her more i should've done alot of things.. i dont know why i didnt. i guess i was stupid not to. she was my *best friend* it kills me that she doesnt trust me anymore. that girl was my SISTER. she and i were tight. we would sit on my porch and make friendship bracelets... and.. play kick the can.. and pledge out sistership... and now... its all different. shes gone a different way.
its so hard to believe that at one time me and her would talk about the cute high school guys.. and the cute middle school guys.. and now.. she talks about mike. mike.mike.mike. i should've kicked him in the shins. he is an evil man. evil and manipulative and controlling. he stole my *sister* from her family and her friends. enough. im done

i guess thats just one of the things on my mind.. and since its 10-25.. i guess i should really hit the hay. ... see ya guys'z later

Mad Insane Monkey Love
Melinda

With tears in my eyes i fell further into the abyss on Wednesday, May 8, 2002 at 10:10 p.m.

{(¯`·.:+:tew-dai:+:.·´¯)}
Happy Cinco de Mayo. *throws confetti* w00. this comedian said

"who did you guys beat? and he said 'the french.' and i replied 'yea? who hasn't"

tee hee~! So. anyways.. I think today was the most uninteresting day ever. PLUS everyone i know has gone away. ugh. they've all got away messages on, so i dont even have the joy of talking to someone. =0/ s-uh-k-ey.
I think im going to cut my hair. short. like to my shoulders. i need a change. the braids did not work out at ALL. they looked so ugly that i pulled them down and ran to my blowdryer for comfort LOL =0) i just need to figure out what to do with myself! urgh~! i think im mildly afraid of being and ending up alone. its so annoying. my celebrity crush of the two seconds is but-of-course Mr. Benji-from-Good-Charlotte! teehee hes adorable.



Why can't anyone cute like that ^^ go to my high school??? ! the sad thing is..that they got picked on in highschool for being different. maryland sucks big time. almost as much as VA. ((BTW: ill be "rocking" my UVA sweatshirt tomorrow hell yes.)) but seriously. im going to move into his little tour bus. whew~!

anyways..i guess i'd beetter go.. i should sign off... adnd dance.. *should*
love
melinda

With tears in my eyes i fell further into the abyss on Sunday, May 5, 2002 at 07:44 p.m.

so i lied.
Okay. this is anticipatory. and this is the 3rd blog tonight so i will keep it short.
first off i'd like to thank the people that made this blog possible.
i am so sick of it. don't even give me the shit about "wow im atheist so i can rant about religion. Shaaaaaaaaaaaaddddddduuuuuuuuuupppppppppppppppp ~!! iknow. "if you dont like it then dont read it. Yaaack yaack yaack. kiss my ass. i dont give a damn if it pisses you off. go ahead and be atheist. jacob is. and he doesnt continually rant about "oo Christian that, Buddhist that.." blahblahblahblah it pisses me off SO much! fine. whatever be athiest. throw yourself a party. do whatever floats your boat. Whatever. i really could give a damn. but PLEASE dont rant about things you dont understand! my goodness. one of my most favourite things i heard was this

if we evolved from monkeys, why are there still monkeys here?

LOLOL that cracked me up, because its the damn truth. whatever. call em a liar? i dun care. call me a hypocrite? i dont really give a damn. if you wanna rant about religion i'll rant about athiesm. just wait till that rant pops up on the blog. you'll know it.
PS - now, the rant would be directed toward one person. not towards all athiest ppl ((ex: my friend jay LOL)) so it would really be a rant on.. what the hell are you thinking? anyways.. i must be off.

--UnMotivated
PS. i was talking to my resident athiest buddy.. OI he's hilarious.. he goes "What a dumbass. shes faking." hehe he makes me giggle too. ((not in the condescending way that she did"))

With tears in my eyes i fell further into the abyss on Sunday, May 5, 2002 at 02:00 a.m.

{(¯`·.:+:either thou, or i, or both must die:+:.·´¯)}
sorry, i had to put this in.. because it is so fitting

why then oh brawling love, oh loving hate.. oh anything of nothing first create.. heavy lightness.. serious vanity.. mis-shapen chaos of wellseeming forms.. Ai me sad hours seem long..

i was just sitting here thinking about it.. and i mean.. come on.. romeo had it going. he had the right way to think. anyways.. i would really like to start going by melinda from now on.. i know its like "fat chance. everyone knows youre mindy" but that sounds so little kid. you know? i mean.. how long have i been "mindy"? since like.. forever. my mom calls me Melina sometimes.. and apparently that means "little apple" which is a really cute nickname too =0) oh.. i think im just bored with Mindy. maybe Myndi hehehe that would rock. ehhsh. oh well im gonna hit it. i am SO TIRED

i am fortunes fool
Melina

2 households both alike in dignity in fair verona where we lay our scene
From ancient grudgebreak to new mutiny
Where civil blood makes civil hands unclean
From forth the fatal loins of these two foes a pair of star cross'd lovers take their life
Whos misadventured piteious overthrows doth with there death bury their parents strife
The fearful passage of their deathmarked love and the continuance of their parents rage
Which but their childrens death naught could remove
Is now the 2 hours traffic of our stage.

With tears in my eyes i fell further into the abyss on Sunday, May 5, 2002 at 01:46 a.m.

Mmkay
mmkay. i added stuffs to my site. its 100% cute =0) oh well.
anyways, today i just altered a Tee-shirt. and.. thats it. lol. tomorrow im going to clean my room.. ugh. oh well. so anyways.. I think everything is weird now. i don't know why.. its just.. everyone is acting different.. maybe its me. i dunno. maybe im jsut the different one. but everyone seems to have switched personalities. the people i used to joke around with have become oddly non-funny and the non-funny people i find myself joking around with more.. and enjoying their company. Dammit i am so ... so... what is the word? fickle! LOL.
i dont really know where i stand anymore.. i think im sort of on the outside anymore. my friends are acting weird. weird weird weird! i dont know why either! im like. whats your deal dudes? ((yea, dudes.. dudettes not so much.)) maybe its cuz its the end of the year. whatever
i need to go to sleep because im tired... Damn. i have 21 stuff'd animals on my bed... 3 of which are half as big as me! oi.
m4d cr4zy s3xx4y Luff ,
((that was for ally))
mad crazy sexy love to all..
melinda

With tears in my eyes i fell further into the abyss on Sunday, May 5, 2002 at 12:58 a.m.

{(¯`·.:+:blah blah:+:.·`¯)}
Well, I've been doing alot of nothing.. me and Robin have me talking about dudes, lol
I think she should talk to chris. her and chris would totally get along. chris probably would disagree, but oh well. they have meshable personalities. =0P they just are similar, but alike at times. Anyways
let me just say that i am bored. i am watching friends and they are playing twister. that game is awesome. i need to get it and have a big twister party. lol. oh well.

everyone is sad about left-eye dying.. i think that it is really sad, but we need to move on. maybe in atlanta they are just more overly hyped.. my mom said she'd braid my hair in those tiny braids .. i know it really doesnt matter, but i'll take a picture when she does..
me and jess were talking.. and we both planned out our romanic-futures ((that will never happen)) shes gonna move to france.. i'll move to italy.. then.. i'll lay in my hammock-y-thing.. and he'll whisper sweet-nothings in my ear in italian *sigh* its so great. hehe. well anyways.. i must be off..
mad love
melinda

With tears in my eyes i fell further into the abyss on Wednesday, May 1, 2002 at 07:11 p.m.

{(-'.:+pissed+:.'-)}
I've just been pissed off so much. i am so sick of everyone flaming the Catholic chuch. my God. Okay.. now.. Yes, there is a big Scandal <--notice the spelling. and Yes, i am Catholic. Just because of the scandal, doesnt mean im going to change religions. its not *just* the catholic church that is having scandal <--again with spelling correctly. Okay? have we heard about all the Baptist ministers and the little kids? HELLO?! have we heard about all the athiest people and the little kids? DAmmit~! Okay don't be christian, don't be anything, but leave MY religion alone. i don't pick on atheists.. im not all "oo look at you *point*" so don't even start with being catholic (("catholic-ist" hehe)) You know? i mean.. its so AGGRIVATING. there are a million other sweet nice priests, but just because a few of them were nasty, doesnt mean the whole religion is going to the dogs. it IS the oldest branch of christianity.. hello? i mean.. all the other ones branch off of it. UGHHHHHHH i just get so sick of it. you know what im saying? i know my friends who read this are going "is she talking about me?" i didn't think anyone could be THAT ignorant~! okay? well.. that was a crazy rant.. it probably didnt make sense.. remmber what the bible said :
Judge not, lest ye be judged.
im out
melinda

With tears in my eyes i fell further into the abyss on Sunday, April 28, 2002 at 12:50 p.m.

{(-'.:+stupidella+:.'-)}
I archived without saving my cutesy kitty =0P~! and without leaving my entry. ugh. if you wanna read my old blog.. umm.. well.. click on the thing that says "mine archive"
I'm waiting I'm waiting for you...
okay here goes my old entry
bwahahahahah!!!!! i had a frosty bum today. me, tisha, trent, and chris went ice skating. it was like.. so fun! i cant figure out what is up with my keyboard. lol. my exclamation point key isnt working. anyway, back to ice skating. i had more than too much fun today.. fun like that should be illegal! bwahhaha! anywaaay. =0) i can't wait to go again. me and tisha were talking about going to see ET next weekend. trenton said "i already saw it.." so he wants to go see spiderman.. you know we'll all end up going to see that.. i want to go see "Lilo and Stich" when it comes out.. what can i say? i love little kid movies! =0) hehe its cool to be a dork. i think tonight im going to re-do the layout of my page... well.. i must be off for right now.. byebye mad love, melindalocious <--again.. dont ask. BKA - The Hopeless

see how dumb i was? LOL oh well.. i really must be off.. enjoy the squirrelyness

With tears in my eyes i fell further into the abyss on Sunday, April 28, 2002 at 12:30 a.m.